Tranny Dyke Sex: part II

Posted: December 11, 2008 in Uncategorized

Here I am playing with my Scottish lass hat and scarf. This time the belt and the houndstooth shorts give it a highlander association. How femme is the look? I define my own gender here, but I hope it is clearly femme.

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What is sex like as a femme boy? I have a penis and I am planning on keeping it. But, since I started identifying as femme in bed, using it to thrust feels weird.
About a year before my transition I started to notice that when I was thrusting inside of a lover, I felt surges of something like testosterone or adrenaline. It made me feel masculine and aggressive. It felt wrong inside of me and confused me. I also felt like hetero intercourse changed the dynamic of a relationship. It felt like some sort of hetero-bonding, with built in male-butch female-femme dynamic. It bothered me enough that I stopped having intercourse with women I was dating. I explored loving non-penetrative sex with a number of lovers, and this led to sweet affairs which felt egalitarian like best friends rather than being a couple. Unfortunately, this just postponed sex and the lock-in of butch/femme dynamics. We chose not to choose. Eventually, If I wanted a long term relationship, I would have to figure this out. Should I use my penis in sex? If so, how?

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